the brain n soul of tan Tengku Alam

21

2012-02-24T03:09:00.000+08:00

kasih sayang what is kasih sayang? it can means lot's of things... on Monday i'll show what "kasih sayang" means to me... i just hope that i don't bust it out too much... i need to faces what i hated and fear the most, i need to love myself first then only i can love other. I don't want to be digging for my own grave... i'm gonna be playing a monolong on kasih sayang akan diri sendiri. Is time to be mature and realistic, is time to wake up and stop blaming others on mistake that i had made. It time to turn 21. One mission done and many more to go...

one of it, shaving my hair... yes the hair that i have not cut for 2 year is now sudah di cukur dan di kerat... but aku tak menyesal... i been wanting for a slock for a long time and i finely get it... peduli apa orang nak kata... kalau terus ikut kata orang kita yang merana.

flying cat

2012-02-24T02:46:00.000+08:00

2.43am i'm still awake, what in earth am i doing? this is what i'm doing

hahaha i love nyan cat

NYAN NYAN NYAN NYAN

MEOW :3

mahu

2012-02-22T03:39:00.001+08:00

otak dan hati mahu berbicara tapi sayang tiada siapa yang sudi mendengar....
mahu saja aku luahkan...
bantal aku kerap dihujani air mata...
mahu saja aku tarik tapi bukan kuasa aku..
mahu aku lupakan kau tapi kau dengar bila aku menagis bila aku duka..
mahu ke kau pada aku?
hidup tidak adil tapi mahu kita membangkang?

Cinta

2012-02-18T01:31:00.000+08:00

aku suke music aku jatuh cinta dengan music aku nak nikahi music tapi aku nak scandal dengan film dan aku nak beranakan film dan master pic, tak setuju? ini hidup aku dunia aku nyawa aku. Soal jodoh aku sudah buang jahu ke tanah lapang harus bernikah demi sesuatu pekara tercapai. Bukan murtad atau serong cuma mahu tumpu dan sayang diri sendiri dengan lebih, tak ada yang akan sayang aku lebih jika bukan aku sendiri kan.

u tell me what u think about it

2012-02-17T01:54:00.000+08:00

judge it by ur self.

Stop

2012-02-07T18:37:00.000+08:00

i wasn't having a great day... i was about to blog about how bad i felt how sad and all that stuff but i saw a blog post up in my friend blog and alhamdulilah thanks for wake me up.... kata-kata hikmah positif she was right, kita tak perlu terlalu fikir dengan janji or kata-kata manis manusia lain... cause in the end we made the path. It all start with me so it should end with me. Don't over think cause that why you always cry in the end. It never to late to stop...

Damiea

2012-02-02T15:07:00.001+08:00

Damiea dah balik rumah neney

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kelahiran

2012-02-01T02:26:00.000+08:00

Dia sudah di lahirkan ke dunia yang Allah cipta ini...

aku suka nama dia sebab aku yang pilih dan aku suka nama itu kerana nama itu sangat jarang di gunakan oleh manusia zaman sekarang. Berat nye 3.5 kg besar kan, alhamdulilah dia sihat, montel kata neneknya... Mak aku sudah menjadi nenek dan aku sudah menjadi Cekcu -_-, dan yang penting abang aku sudah bergelar seorang bapak...

Allah maha berkuasa kita datang dari nya dan kita bakal pulang pada nya....

Selamat datang Tengku Nur Damiea Bt Tengku Rizalfadli Shah, hari ini kau bertemu ibu bapa mu dan keluarga mu :).

Tak sabar cekcu nak jaga dan mendidik dameia on what i know. Amin, aku bersyukur :')

Tengku Nur Damiea Bt Tengku Rizalfadli Shah

3.5 kg

31.1.2012

4.41pm

hospital selayang

her first daughter and mommy time

;3

2012-01-30T15:06:00.001+08:00

Inside my sister in law punya tummy, this is her ultrasound pic

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1

2012-01-30T14:52:00.001+08:00

As we all know, every student will actually get the book boucer but till now aku tak dapat-dapat lagi dammm when the heck will aswara student, going to get it la???

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1 days before January take it trip

2012-01-30T02:05:00.000+08:00

been kinda busy this lately busy with what? i my self don't know. What i do know is that i need to watch good movie and i have script to write dammm how can i mange to do all of the thing?

i mean bukan sikit but banyak jugak la...

and i need to do it in bahasa melayu,

bukan aku tak suka bahasa melayu

cuma mesti banyak kesalahan bahasa dan spelling punya!

aku nama je melayu

tapi bahasa lebih cenderung kepada

bahasa English!

damm you Disney!

hahah tak jugak, kalau aku tak tonton disney masa kecik aku tak akan tahu apa itu Media and so on....

so nak tak nak aku akan buat yang terbaik demi assignment yang telah di berikan kepada aku.

Insyallah siap on time :)

kalau x aku akan paksa jugak...

oh by the way aku gagal lagi ujian undang-undang aku...

tak apa aku ok, don't worry i will try aging for my 8 time :)

and kakak ipar aku lagi 2 minggu dh nk beranak

and miko pon dh beranak...

bapak aku?

entah sperms dia dh mati semua kowt hahahah.

my bad..

facing

2012-01-16T02:08:00.000+08:00

networking... facing with the social life style and the information that a click away (stalking) what it mean more...
macam dah malas nak berhadapan dengan semua nyawa ini.. bukan putus asa cuma tidak mahu tahu apa jejak yang sedang dia tinggalkan di mana-mana. I need to stop? do i ? or should i not stop? do i Face it? or not?
sekarang ni semua benda aku nak buat aku kena fikir banyak kali... baju yang nak di sarungkan ke Aswara pun nak kena fikir berkali-kali sedangkan aku tak pernah ambil kisah pekara ini... is this a sign of me growing becoming old and throwing out the kid in me?

just done with zetty 21 birthdays party... need a party planer hey i'm up for it :)

grateful

2012-01-08T02:29:00.000+08:00

just a few more days i will enroll back to class oh how much i miss studying -__-.
The things is, I never had this feeling of wanting to study so bad when i was at other places.
But now when i'm at Aswara, i just love studying there... may be what my mom said was true Aswara is the right place for me... ok so i know that my pointer is not like how my mom would want it to be but,
hey it better then getting nothing right...
oh yeah big news!! i'm gonna have a twin (boy) for my nephew and they are both identical twin...
ya Allah i'm so excited for my brother and my sister in-law even though we have issue in the passed...
hey the passed is the passed what happening now is that count...
my sister in-law should be delivering in the February..
Ya Allah i can't wait... I know she gonna have a twin i just know it!!
Insyallah when i get married (if i get married) i wanted to have twin for myself...
when i was young i always think of myself having twin cute kan... :3 meooww
i'll try getting the memo-gram picture off the baby from my bother and i going to show you guys... i'm so excited

( i'm praying for everyday insyallah )

laughing

2012-01-04T02:49:00.000+08:00

me:

when are you getting marry?

soul:

when someone ask me....

brain:

not planing for it...

me:

but what happened if "JODOH" come and ask you for marriage?

soul:

with an open heart i will take it...

brain:

i think soul and you have been hurt enough, so may be marriage is not a good idea?

me:

hahaha that what life is....

soul:

brain you do have a good point there, i do have been damage a lot same goes to you tan.

brain:

believe me i know what i'm saying...

me:

how bout if we just left the work to God and Fate do the job? while that happened let just think and prepared what 2012 is waiting for us shell we brain and soul?

2012

2012-01-01T05:42:00.000+08:00

it been 3 years now and he is still my adek :3

last 2011

2011-12-31T16:24:00.000+08:00

new year alone? serious? woit apa nak jadi ni!!! sumpah kau fucktad tan!!! i hate you!

yang benar diri kau yang mahu bersosial

t rex

2011-12-31T01:40:00.000+08:00

i want to marry him and have his babies

malam

2011-12-29T17:27:00.000+08:00

ok so malam new year ni nak bertapak ke mana? i my self pun tidak tahu lagi... haishhh still looking for the place la baby! but what i know is that i want the place to be fabulous yes! music, boys, partying, drinks, drama semua mesti ada! yes mesti ada!

3.54

2011-12-29T03:59:00.000+08:00

it late and we are still up yming... i miss talking to him :')

28 dec

2011-12-29T03:37:00.000+08:00

my baby sudah sunat alhamdulilah... thing when well. skin is getting dry then ever oh weather pleas be on my side for once... haishh still looking for new year plan oh almost lupe... My Queen is going to held an doa selamat prayers on the 1 January do come... i'll tell u where it will be held semua la

adel

2011-12-27T02:33:00.001+08:00

have i ever cross your mind?
do you? i mean did you miss me when ever i'm not with you? do you?
i said that i won't call you but i'm sorry i can't live without you...
i always need you always...
but time is not on our side....
i always talk about you, i always write about you...
but i never know if you ever read what i post...
i don't know how i would do with out you in my life cause i need you.
it can be a good thing to be fare from you
teach me to love...
teach me to stop hoping cause it sure do work...
you leave me breathless
i keep my heart for you
i keep my love for you
but it just a waist.
-End-

fate

2011-12-25T20:35:00.000+08:00

time passed by so do people.. i never like him never i did... lust? yes i do have for him but it never last... i don't know how i should feel now but my heart is telling me something and i don't understand what it saying.. can't we just put aside the feeling of wanting the lust? and just face the reality? you have your own life so do i, i understand if you don't want me near your life yeah sure i can do that... it not like we will be seeing each other everyday right? nope not at all we won't, if we do then that fate and we can do nothing on that cause it already been written like that... lagi pun kau dah nak bertunang so all the best...

:3

2011-12-17T03:09:00.001+08:00

day by day i heard news about some girl just get propose la, itu la ini la.... haishh it life guys and i'm not going to be the one who wanted to be bitching all over the story. Tak ada guna aku tahu banyak benda kalau benda tu had nothing to do with me kan...
I hate being all negative and all emotional, 2011 had almost come to it end and i had spend most of the time being sad, emotional... aku suke bagi nasihat dan sentiasa mengpositive kan orang lain tapi diri sendiri tak terjaga...
aku berdoa agar 2011 aku berakhir dengan gembira dan bukan nya duka...
i'm not hopping to much cause that just how it goes now days. I had an excident 2 days ago, my head hit the front mirror and there were a spot of crack no worry i'm ok just a bit bruise and swelling at my kepala....
other then that i'm all good. Can't wait for next sem to come hope i'll be there when time come

2011-12-10T19:58:00.000+08:00

had a date with youtube just now and was entertain by Toddlers & Tiaras.

it kinda cute and jelik jugak la with the litter ass punya attitude. what i know is once i have a child ( if i get married and get knock up la) i will not make my daughter a doll and wear all those funny thing dammm it not pretty la it just baby doll came to live

here the promo

HELP ME PASS MY FINAL

2011-12-09T16:08:00.002+08:00

Description

Mari beramai-ramai memeriahkan pengambaraan PSA (Public Service Advertisement). "Melakar Masa Depan" terbitan ASWARA pada hari ahad ini. "Melakar Masa Depan" merupakan klip video hasil kerja pelajar ASWARA untuk menggalakkan anak muda Malaysia mendaftar sebagai pengundi.

Lokasi: Dataran Bandaraya
Tarikh: 11/12/2011
Masa: 10.00 AM

Apa yang korang perlu buat?

Kami memerlukan 1000 orang untuk menjayakan klip video ini. Kita beramai-ramai akan berarak dari Dataran Merdeka (Jalan Raja) hingga ke Jalan Leboh Pasar (berhadapan Bank Pertanian Malaysia).

Kami mengalu-alukan anda, kawan-kawan anda, saudara-mara dan keluarga dekat atau jauh untuk bersama-sama memeriahkan suasana di samping menyumbang sesuatu kepada masyarakat dalam masa yang sama! Jadi datanglah beramai-ramai ke Dataran Merdeka dan bersama-sama membawa masej untuk mendaftar sebagai pengundi bagi menunaikan tanggungjawab kita sebagai warga Malaysia!

Sebarang pertanyaan dan cadangan, sila hubungi:
Azlan (Production Manager) : 017-9716913
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Belajar

2011-12-09T00:36:00.001+08:00

guys and girls SHUT THE FUCK UP AND LEARN :D thank you

do your own summary

1 December

2011-12-06T21:31:00.000+08:00

made new friend we shack we smack we dance we sang we make out we got wet ,we dry our self with a huge fan by the beach we HAD FUN!

2011-11-29T22:09:00.000+08:00

ok i know that i had post earlier but who care....
i like the song and the video but what i don't like is when they start fighting and end up sleeping alone...
i been sleeping alone for a few month now and let me tell you how suck is't...
it suck to be in a queen bed alone....
(ayat-ayat orang yang kesepian)
i want to post to him but no use cause it just no use.

1 December

2011-11-29T21:55:00.000+08:00

i have a date with pitbull yes he finely say yes to meet me and other thousand people.... i'll be going with Zetty yes the howt girl who has hair and curve like a diva... but her heart is not a diva ok dah mula merepek...

to tell you the true this will be my first concert yes laugh all you want but it true and i ain't gonna lie it.

so the ticket had been bough and the dress had been pick ok, dress apa tu tak tahu lagi la hahaha but i know it'll be red on that 1 December. Exam? ehh by that time it all over baby yes dah habis la aku lak ada banyak paper kn? nope i only got 2 paper la so no worry and today punya paper aku boleh buat i left nothing out... but i do know is what i will left that is helping people :) i'm starting my December with a heart of a Grinch. Yes

the poster

and the siting where we will be....

manusia

2011-11-29T02:37:00.000+08:00

aku pompuan tapi di katakan seorang nyah sebab aku tak mahu berbogel dihadapan dia....

baik la aku nyah kau tuhan... semua palat sujud di palat kau

into dismember

2011-11-29T02:34:00.000+08:00

i have seen it you have seen it if you haven't seen if i think you should...
20 page on this story and it had been done just waiting for the spelling check and off to the printing i shell go...
this morning ada exam traditional theater.... don't know if i'm ready to meet my roots

coffee

2011-11-27T00:10:00.000+08:00

hot coffee top with chocolate ice-cream yes a good night drink before i face the day after today.

good night meowww

his word...

2011-11-25T01:42:00.000+08:00

let the music do it talking for a while...

aku dah habis kata-kata untuk bagi makan blog ni...

breaking

2011-11-21T22:51:00.000+08:00

mula dengan tagisan dan akhir pun dengan tagisan...
note to self never ever trust no body and never ever believe there is true love in this earth.
just remember and note to your self that
"kalau ada jodoh tak kemana"
but if there is no jodoh then just forget about it...
heart broken? yes once aging it had happened.
thanks for fucking and messing with my heart.
i do enjoy the heart fucking is the messing what i don't enjoy.

aku

2011-11-12T20:45:00.000+08:00

aku bukan hilang, aku bukan di telan bumi...aku sibuk,
tapi aku masih ada masa untuk menagis dan ber-masturbation sebab itu satu keperluan agar hati aku x break down xtentu pasal dan juga agar perut tak senak dan xsangap xtentu pasal.
aku malas nak ber-Hippocratic sekarang... aku tak suke mak cik tudung yang pandang hina pada aku semata-mata sebab kuku kaki aku berwarna. mak cik kau jealous ke? mak cik fuck off ok :D
hati aku menagis otak aku marah jiwa aku meronta.

kitran hidup

2011-11-04T03:19:00.000+08:00

sunyi sepi lembap sakit seorang....
dulu seorang-seorang sekarang pun masih seorang...
kitaran hidup...

today and nowit

2011-11-03T10:04:00.000+08:00

it Thursday and Alhamduilah English presentation are done!
two down and 3 more to go i think.
that all kbye

last night today post

2011-11-02T02:46:00.001+08:00

there nothing to say... all i can do now is smile and not look into anyone eyes cause we all know the eyes tell how a person felt... so i'm not going to do dat... that is it for the nite.. oh yeah i had fun last night 1.11.11 with my ex Danial we had fun but i bleed last nite damm but no worried i'm ok.. we'll be in touch well i hope so..

pijak

2011-10-31T20:07:00.000+08:00

cabut, baling, hempas, pijak2kan saja hati itu haa aku suke sila la sila...
sekiranya sudah puas buat begitu buang saja bangkai nya ke dalam lautan benci...
kerna aku mahu membenci kau.
Tiada guna menjadi baik sekiranya selalu di layan buruk macam binatang...
baik saja aku jadi jahat tapi bukan la sang syitan..
tapi tak akan lari jahunya manusia dengan syitan ada je sebelah nya...
iman je yang entah kuat atau tidak...

2011-10-28T17:46:00.002+08:00

partying

2011-10-27T06:14:00.000+08:00

i when partying on the 25 oct 2011 at the rootz on the bumbung of the lot 10... it was fun and amazing. I had fun and it was the first time my mind was not on you thanks to the jack and the music and the people there... aku still mabuk aku rasa... oh fuck aku ada class pagi ni and aku xtido lagi... presentation lagi nak menghadap oh man... there time when i wish i had sex on that nite... it end here till late nite i think.

cold

2011-10-25T01:10:00.000+08:00

it cold it heartless it the air conditional that being so bitch tonight...
i felt the coldness dammm sometime it too cold...
but yet i'm still not cool this is so not worth being all cold

Vintage Festival

2011-10-24T02:26:00.000+08:00

let the video do the talking..

i didn't take lots of picture dis time

cause i was busy buying stuff hahaha

i don't shop a lot YE so senyap!

2011-10-22T13:44:00.000+08:00

aku seorang insan yang tidak punya perasaan kan... ok la fine then use me as u want throw me away when you have done using me.... i don't know where my wrong is but things always happened, things that involving tears always happened to me... aku xcool aku xcantik aku xsempurna tapi aku punya perasaan which makin lama makin rapuh... kau nak aku jadi patung ye? baik la aku akan buang perasaan aku, buang jahu-jahu supaya aku tak akan rasa apa-apa lagi... sumpah aku sedih teramat sedih...

2011-10-22T13:00:00.000+08:00

oh hari ini tiada sape perlukan aku?

oh macam tu ke?

kbye

2011-10-22T02:37:00.000+08:00

if you hate this then it mean that you don't get me... if you look at this photo in one way then i pity on you... it not about nudity but it about being a women... don't think religion with me on this... cause i'm blocking all off that for a while... kalau kau pikir kau alim then jangan kau tegur dan kawan dengan aku kerna aku hanya akan memberi kau dosa dan menghilangkan ke aliman mu...

hari esok dan hari ini

2011-10-21T01:33:00.000+08:00

esk hari ini saya tiada kelas tapi saya ada DIGITAL POST WORKSHOP di akedemi...

dan ianya pekara yang wajib mahu atau tidak saya akan menghadirikan diri saya buat workshop itu...

maaf kalau banyak kesalahan ejaan dan kesalahan tatabahasa dan pengunaan ayat.

Pagi tadi menghadirkan diri di FINAS buat Forum Young film maker....

boleh tahan jugak isi-isi yang disampaikan dan dipersembahkan...

soalan-soalan yang bernas dan bodoh juga turut ada...

Ahmad Idham, Sofea Jane, Shuhaimi Baba, Diana Danielle dan ramai lagi...

tapi sayang kerana Diana Danielle hanya lah barangan perhiasan pentas sahaja

hahhaha (ketawa KEJAM) kiranya kalau dia tidak hadir pun tak apa...

ASWARA bukan saja membekukan kaki dan badan di Finas tapi ramai lagi young film maker dari Univarstity lain yang turut hadir..

antaranya UITM, UUM, UTAR, dan banyak lagi...

gambar tidak banyak yang dia tangkap kerna tiada keinginan tuk bergambar

:) hmm itu saja buat masa ini sekian...

(maaf gambaran kecik)

sekolah

2011-10-19T02:07:00.000+08:00

getting myself busy with collage activity...

surely this will take my mind off you...

screw it i got life to handel with...

"sekolah lagi penting dari cinta"

half of the thing that i used for sekolah...

2011-10-17T18:04:00.000+08:00

epic falied

2011-10-16T17:23:00.000+08:00

the party when well...

most off the gusset i invited came..

but he didn't show up...

as always there is a reason this time it involving death...

don't know if it true or not...

if it a lie then it will be his sin if it true my condolence to you and your family...

but the story you text me just doesn't make any seance...

if you can't make a promise then don't make one...

cause you are just making me sad and hate you more then ever...

if this what you wanted then i'm out...

all this time waiting for you meant nothing...

i can't believe what i'm about to type..

all this long we were ~~never a couple~~ right..

thank for epic failed kamal...

20 year old

2011-10-11T00:01:00.000+08:00

wish to my self

happy birthday tan, u r now just turn 20...

stop crying it's your birthday you should be happy not crying...

i just wish he remember...

STOP IT!! STOP CRYING!!!

there no use off crying

this not the first year he forgot about your birthday u know batter....

so stop being a litter baby and suck it up....

enjoy ur 20 happy bday gemok!

...

2011-10-10T23:15:00.000+08:00

in 49 minit i be 20...

i don't feel happy at all actually....

infect i feel like crying....

hmm i'm going to cry now..

kbye...

happy bday tan tengku alam...

1 hari lagi

2011-10-10T03:12:00.000+08:00

hari ini isnin esok selasa

dan selasa ialah 11 0ct...

tggu satu hari lagi la...

ok bye

Friday

2011-10-07T13:08:00.000+08:00

it Friday,

the day that quite can be found chill food are the menu when it a hot day..

going to meet my baby he is turning one years old this 11 Oct,

short pants and shirt is the best wear today...

let my hair down and feel the Friday air.

dress

2011-10-06T03:13:00.000+08:00

i wanna look like this on that day with you T rex and with all off my friend and my love one...

not the body that i'm after it the dress...

yes i sound so girly right now... i'm doing some curling with my finger

tap your heart and guess what i'm a girl and becoming a women...

and on that day i want to take a picture with you,

cause the last time all i get was ur picture alone with out me...

but this time i want it to be use in a picture so i can keep in a picture frame and my heart .

Getting the news that u had accident almost kill me cause i'm afraid that something bad had happened,

but thank god that you are OK...

if nothing goes wrong 15 October 2011 will be the day i'll hug and kiss you...

anger

2011-10-04T01:20:00.000+08:00

i'm pissed off and i'm angry at you! i hate you right now!

oh how i wish you are in front off me right so that i can just let all of my anger to you!!!

i hate you tonight Sayang!

wait i can't hate u cause i love u arghhh i hate this stupid unknown feeling hate it!!

but seriously i do want to shout!

nak jerit depan u then i nak kiss u!! it because i miss u god dammit!

arghhh it been 5 month!

hate not being with you!

hate that i have this anger cause not being with u!!

i miss u!!!

segan

2011-10-02T05:13:00.001+08:00

sumpah saya segan bile ada seseorang yang ramai pengikutnya mengikuti saya, saya segan kerana saya bukannye seseorang yang orang ramai kenal. Ada yang kenal saya ada yang langsung tidak tahu akan kewujudan saya,

haaaa saya akan cube mengblog dalam bahasa melayu hari ini, kalau tatabahasa dan ejaan saya teruk saya mintak maaf la sebab saya bukannya pandai seperti anda yang menglebalkan diri anda pandai...

jangan terlalu PROUD kerna nati ada je yg menyesal nati...
(damm my bm suck dude) haishhhh aku sekarang sangat taksub dengan permainan yang ada di lama web mukabuku lihat la jam berapa aku memgblog sekarang...

aku ada banyak kerja yang aku harus laksanakan tapi aku hanya bookmark saje page tersebut kerna Microsoft aku xberfungsi, aku call T rex dan dia kata nati pagi esok dia akan tolong aku...

kalau dia xdapat tolong, aku akan pergi mintak tolong dengan ameen dia budak collage aku... hmmm aku dah ketandusan idea jadi aku rasa aku nak telephone T rex dan bermanje2 dengan dia... kalau dia dah tido aku pon berangsur lah tido....

sekali lagi saya ingin mengatakan yang saya segan berbual atau pun berdamping dengan orang yang popular ini... ada sekali NARMI membalas twitt aku, kau nak tahu apa aku buat?? melompat2 atas katil (ini cerita benar bukan buat2 atau olok2)

aku hanya mampu senyum dan tersengih2 apa bila pekara ini belaku....
aku tak kedekut dengan senyuman, benci mana pon aku pada orang itu aku tetap akan senyum pada dia....
itu la aku...

(aku dan abu sentiasa senyum walaupun hati sedih :D)

STOP MASTURBATING

2011-10-01T04:36:00.000+08:00

Onani masalah lazim yang dibangkitkan kepada pakar sakit tuan. Di dalam bidang perubatan sendiri, banyak pertikaian mengenai amalan ini dengan kebanyakan pakar psikologi berpendapat ia satu cara untuk mengenali diri secara mendalam, terutama mengenai tindak balas perasaan syahwat dan kemuncak rangsangan seksual.

Bagaimanapun, mereka tidak menjelaskan apa perlu dilakukan apabila amalan itu bertukar kepada ketagihan kerana saya menerima begitu banyak soalan daripada mereka yang mengaku sebagai ‘penagih onani’.

Perlu diingatkan yang mereka membabitkan semua peringkat usia dengan sebahagian besarnya remaja dan bujang, tetapi golongan sudah berkahwin turut tidak ketinggalan dengan amalan ini, malah ada yang menyifatkan berasa lebih puas dengan beronani.

Anda boleh bayangkan tekanan yang anda berikan kepada anggota sulit dan sistem syahwat anda dengan beronani.
Jika anda lakukan onani secara luar biasa seperti melakukan rangsangan seksual secara kasar dan kuat untuk mengecapi klimaks, mungkin apabila beristeri, anda akan mendapati bersetubuh dengannya tidak memberi kepuasan seperti anda kecapi secara onani.

Masalah ini dikenali sebagai ‘Traumatic Masturbatory Syndrome’. Yang menimbulkan masalah ialah onani mengakibatkan klimaks anda berlaku dengan cepat, yang jika berterusan dan diamalkan akan mengakibatkan anda tidak dapat bertahan lama apabila mengadakan hubungan seksual sebenar.

Selain itu, jika agak ganas dengan cara merangsang anggota sulit anda sehingga mengakibatkan anggota itu sakit dan bengkak, kemungkinan satu hari anda akan mengalami mati pucuk apabila kerosakan lama menunjukkan kesannya.

Ini kerana anggota sulit adalah organ vaskular dan tidak boleh diurut atau dirangsang dengan keras. Ia hanya sesuai untuk dirangsang melalui salur faraj perempuan.

Berkaitan dengan benih dan kesuburan bukan dalam pengaruh onani. Sehubungan itu, bagi anda yang sihat dan mempunyai buah zakar yang berfungsi dengan baik, ia pasti mampu menghasilkan sperma.

Namun, saya ingin mengingatkan yang kerosakan buah zakar boleh berlaku pada bila-bila masa ketika melakukan onani, dan jika ia berlaku dan menjejaskan kilang sperma, sudah tentu anda akan mandul kerana sperma tidak lagi dihasilkan ‘kilang’.

Sebagai contoh, anda melakukan onani dalam keadaan tidak terkawal seperti pengaruh alkohol, menyebabkan tidak tahu atau sedar ketika itu anda teragut buah zakar atau mencederakan buah zakar.

Anda hanya menyedari selepas beberapa lama yang buah zakar anda menjadi semakin kecil atau bengkak, dan jika kilang sperma terjejas, anda akan menjadi mandul.
Sudah tentu perkara yang menyeronokkan sukar untuk dihentikan, kecuali berlaku sesuatu perkara yang memudaratkan seperti keradangan buah zakar, kecederaan zakar seperti kebengkakan zakar.

Bagaimanapun, ia sudah terlewat jika tiada cara perawatannya. Mungkin jika zakar terkulai, bengkok atau patah, ada cara rawatan seperti pemulihan dengan pembedahan atau penggunaan alat pemulih.

Namun, jika kilang sudah rosak dan buah zakar mengecil, tiada penawarnya. Jadi cuba kurangkan amalan onani, terutama secara kasar. Anda perlu ingat, anda hanya ada satu zakar, bukan sepasang. Jika zakar itu tidak berguna, hidup anda merana selama-lamanya!

the whole number

2011-09-29T22:38:00.000+08:00

in just a few more day, the whole number will be on my life. I don't know if i'm gonna like it or not but we don't know what is gonna happened in the future so let just chill and enjoy the ride.... hope this time the guy that claim to be as someone in my life will be there and so does other ...

2011-09-29T22:22:00.002+08:00

Art for grab

2011-09-28T03:45:00.000+08:00

last week activity but today update, was to busy with assignment and class, here some off the pic. The video is still processes at Youtube

nasi goreng

2011-09-22T01:55:00.000+08:00

pasar seni

2011-09-22T00:41:00.000+08:00

after class we decide to hang out and we choose pasar seni as our place to crash. We walk we laugh we eat we drink we eat and we had fun. Me Ulii Azman, Moose Mizan kamal and Kanes Kane was the stars off that day.

behind the scenes

2011-09-22T00:35:00.000+08:00

roll by me pasted and edited by MUS

17 September 2011

2011-09-22T00:27:00.002+08:00

in the aftrenon i when here, i stay for a while after that i take off

click click

2011-09-20T23:29:00.000+08:00

it about time now we know who is the bitch among all dicks and pussy. Don't have to act all the time cause sooner or later that dick poll will stand on it own and that pussy will spreed it leg while open, yup all we need to do it just seat back and wait cause it will happened eventually. like how the clock move click click.....

death

2011-09-11T16:03:00.000+08:00

promise is just a word when they are not fulfilled, i don't want much i just want us to spend time together as cupel that all. If you can't do that do you think u can be my husband? where till death do us part? i never hate u i just hate that u never make time for us! i cry over and over each time i think of you. If this is the answer to our death then i shell wait for you to come and buried me but i will left my heart and mind that full off the memory we ever had. I love you a lot this is me heart broken talking.

wasted

2011-09-09T22:50:00.002+08:00

dude and i though only human get high huhu

sampai bubble2 la

2011-09-09T14:46:00.000+08:00

wordless Friday, just notices that my hair has grown long...

and i just remember that i had not cut my hair for 6 month may be something look good with out changing??

i'm gonna wear this look for a while :)

great -_-

2011-09-08T15:35:00.000+08:00

do u know when that time gonna come, the time that u never know when is going to happened just happened yes it that time is time to get sick!!! I don't know what has happened i don't know how and what is making my stomach is cramping up i'm peeing but i feel as if tak puas kencing ok arghhh great just something i need!

17 September 2011

2011-09-06T16:28:00.000+08:00

the ticket had been book if nothing goes wrong i be at Suara kami event.

Hope to see u guys there too.

during raya

2011-09-06T01:39:00.001+08:00

we left our cat at this place petknode and it was such a bad raya for out cat, sumpah menysal hantar all off my cat there. Alhamdulilah my cat was save but they all turn to be sick.... ya ALLAH how cruel some human can be, they are willing to cheat and kill for money. There were 300 cat bording at the place 16 was found death and 100 is still missing. All off the cat was starving and dehydrated they where left at the shop for 9 days, some cat was hold at Saujana Impian while others was found at the petknode cat boarding hmmmmm. The owner do not have the look off a killer but hmmm " WE SHOULD NEVER JUDGE SOMEONE BY IT LOOK RIGHT?" muke baik tapi hati kite xtahu kan? hmmm what i learn here is that never trust by the cost, murah ke mahal xsemua mengikut kehendak kite. I trust no one now days!

press Conference at amada hotel

this is like the full version

sesi menyelamatkan anak2 kami!

selamat hari raya and salam merdeka

2011-09-06T01:21:00.000+08:00

something we did back in collage

watch out cause i'm getting near

2011-08-28T17:23:00.002+08:00

semalam

2011-08-25T20:20:00.000+08:00

semalam we had fun at tony romus it a celebration to my mother bday

we are not that rich so this is what i and my sister treat our queen.

happy bday cek.

gambar

2011-08-25T02:08:00.000+08:00

the click shop Damansara

19-08-2011

Central Market Kuala Lumpur

23-08-2011

TGI FRIDAY WANGSA WALK MALL

2011-08-23T01:57:00.000+08:00

ok so aku dah kertandusan idea for typing so aku more on twitter now days but no worry aku tak lupe la blogging
(cite as if there like people reading what you wrote kn?) hmmm xda apa kowt? haa lupe aku pergi the click shop, sesat la jugak agagga hmmm but shock gile la lalalal ok things to buy after raya

camera fish eyes the second one
fuji polaroid camera
dolly
lens

hmmm that all i think kbye ohh lupe tahun ni saya balik kampung so xyah nk mengada nak datang rumah hahhaa.

dislike

2011-08-19T15:04:00.000+08:00

don't you just hate it when someone you clam to be ur friend lie to you? ok fine so we are not that closed, it ok to tell me that u had a girlfriend that u been together with for the past 6 year! i'm so fucking ok with it!. hmmm i hate being negative cause that not me well not when i not being all emotional. I like you yes i like you, for your hair and the way u dress dat all not more then that. Don't get me wrong i just have things for guy with a big hair now day hahaha yes i'm weird but u should know it by now i think. Ok so i can't hate you cause i have to right to do that kan? but i can dislike ur action on being a liar kn? ok so i do dat but who care kn? you don't even talk to me now days haihss how people change when the true has shown it self... i don't know if you read my blog or not, if you read it and think that i had gone too much then we shell not be friend any more for good cause some say ~~"sebab mulut badan yang binas kan"~~.

birthday

2011-08-17T00:59:00.000+08:00

today is my mother birthday, i pray to ALLAH so he will make my mother life as how she wanted it to be, insyallah ALLAH will kurniakan doa2 aku dan ibu ku.

hmmm nothing much to say cause lost my mood on some stupid kid attitude.

"famous blogger"

2011-08-14T16:19:00.000+08:00

aku tak suke blogger yang hanya mahu kan popularity.
Sorry la but i just don't like it.
one stupid post and a thousand people will like, you are saying this saying that... you know what? not all you said is true but your fans don't know that cause they believe in you. Stop using your popularity to get pity and money from people.
Things that you are selling is just crap, kalau nak duit sangat pergi cari kerje la! selling things you have used is not consider as working from home is just your desperateness to get money.... tu la belajar pon tak habis lagi kan tapi sibuk nak bergaya macam bini dato number 4.
I don't hate this kinda people i just don't like them... others work so hard on blogging but they get killed by this kinda blogger, kalau kebetulan layout sama or anything in the blog sama mule la cakap "see sama tak blog kami" hayaaiii does the blogging have a rule saying one can't used the same layout or what so ever?
dah kalau kebetulan sama tak kan la kau nak marah dia?? then fans kau pon pi la maki hamun dia just because she or he used the same layout as you si blogger famous used kn?
adehh blogging is about wanting to shared information or your happiness to others is not about wanting to be famous or what so ever the "popular blogger" are doing you know... your story is just normal nothing to be so WOW about.... you don't have to be so RIAK about what had happened to you ok cause tuhan pon suke aku lagi la xsuke kn :)
this is not a hate post it just something i want to shared what i think about so called "famous blogger"
a real blogger doesn't care if she or he have millions of follower, having people to read they work is all enough

film

2011-08-13T01:01:00.000+08:00

don't know what to feel, don't know what to think.... it just happened.. ummm
i hope the thing i should remember and feel will come back...
may be it just me but every time i think about you a drop of tears will leak from my eye...
i need a new start but if it possible i just want....
life to me is like a film...
you upload it to your camera then pull it so that the film will be on the roll...
like life you need a pull so that u can be brave and support to do something...
when your eye see the thing that attract you do anything to grab it right?
when u capture it, it means u done something bad or good the thing had been done.
once the film had come to it end so do ur life...
do u get me?

sebelas

2011-08-11T21:47:00.002+08:00

nothing to be update about

k bye

10

2011-08-11T01:04:00.000+08:00

so dh 10 hari umat islam berpuasa kan? haisshh baru hari ini aku rasa penat... may be cause of the class and the rush other then that i'm all good. I had a pack day today, and i just want to said that i hate how some off the student in Aswara behavior especially the student form faultily Theater year one, they act as if Aswara are their. I choice aswara cause i want to get a better life and a life that have future a head of me

but what are you guys doing??

making noise? acting as if you guys are monkey that had been set free to the city??

tolong la hormat budak faultily lain bukan you guys jew yang dah bayar yuran ok others pon dh bayar. Mak bapak you all send you to kuala lumpur for studying

not to make noise or making "LOVE".

Aku orang bandar pon tak kecoh as you guys in fact the student from KL look like student from KAMPUNG! wtf kn? we from others faultily want to study so pleasssss keep your tones down! cause we are not deft, but we will be is you guys keep making noise like monkey, i won't be this pissed if we are not linking to the same class but we do and i can't stand the high pitch of the noise, i admit i like loud music but what came out from your mouth is nothing useful, kalau kau jerit2 kau ingat sape yang nak dengar kau cakap?? ini bukan class lontaran suara so pleas la respect we from the other faultily.

so guys pleas lah bagi kerja sama, i know that you guys can't wait to be Artist pe semua kan? but now is not the time so pleas SHUT UP and just smile.

jangan menagis!

2011-08-09T00:59:00.000+08:00

sayang kau jangan menagis!

jangan menagis untuk mereka yang telah melukai kau!!!

jangan!!!

sumpah demi ALLAH yang setiap pekara yang berlaku ada sebabnya.

dia bukan yang satu untuk kau! kau bukan untuknya,

perjumpaan anda hanya lah sekadar permainan hati.

jangan kau menagis!

lapkan tagisan kau itu dan berjalan la kehadapan.

Sang Jantan jangan la kau angap sang Hawa hanya la tempat persingahan kau saja.

kau buat dia nati kau ada anak orang akan buat kat anak kau pulak....

NAFSU

2011-08-08T01:50:00.000+08:00

ok so puasa la kn? xblh nk buat dosa kn?

still aku buat dosa gak...

pehh bulan pose nak pulak aku active berkepok2 hasihhh

(perbincangan antara otak dan nafsu)

OTAK : oit intan xelok sgt la berkepok ni... xbaek untuk kesihata ok..

NAFSU : alarrr bukan selalu sebulan pon xde la sampai 30inggit kn?

OTAK : abis kau nk sampai habis 30inggit baru kau nk sedar??

*ok matlamat b4 bday aku (limitkan perbelanjaan kepada 2o inggit je sebualan tok kepok2)

ok bye aku nk kepok2 gian siottt

Aloe Blacc

2011-08-06T16:17:00.000+08:00

this is for you my boo

NOTE TO SELF

2011-08-06T16:12:00.000+08:00

NOTE TO SELF never EVER fall for younger guys cause they know nothing about "love".

kbye...

4

2011-08-05T01:41:00.000+08:00

Asalamualaikum, jelly kelapa aku balun arini. Perut meragam macam enjin kereta nak mati pasal apa xtahu adehhh... esk ada class ganti la pula kan? ok pergi class esk. aku nak tdo sebab aku lesus. Buka puasa tadi aku xmakan nasi sebab aku kenyang minum air and makan buah tembikai sahaja. So sahur naty baru aku balaun nasi. Class aku ok je xde hal lagi la sebab bulan ramadan kan so xpe la. Esok ada date ng sape? dengan si dia lala nite chipsmore. Oh lupe jiran area rumah My Queen ada bagi sms UGUTAN dia cakap " jaga elok2 kucing tu kalau xnk jumpe bangkai depan rumah"
(actually tu bkn ayat dia but aku pissed sbb dia tuduh bubu aku wat hal)
Aku pelik la jiran kat umah mak aku tu kan macam kuih KOCHIC BUSUK k, mulut tu xtahu nk tutup ke? kau keje menghasut orang je kn? hasiiihh, kakak aku kuar tgh2 hari pon kau nk kecoh kat semua org? Bini abg aku mengandung pon kau nk kecoh asal? kau xsabar nak jadi nenek ke? haa kau suruh la anak betina dan jantan kau kawen cepat2 ni x kau sorak dalam umah wat pe? wat bangkai ka?? adehhh mak cik jangan cari pasal sama saya ok? KUCING AKU HILANG PON SBB KAU KN!! ishkk xsuke ng kucing ke apa kn xyah nk kecoh la, XPUAS hati bak kata kat aku! xyah nk wat cerita kat org... ishkk aku baling mercun kat umah kau kang baru kau tahu.
(Hilang pahala PUASA aku).

Moral off the story

kalau anda tidak kacau pekara yang saya ambil berat saya tak akan kacau anda. Dalam pekara ini KUCING aku yg di kecoh2 kan, saya sayang sangat kucing saya cause i'm a animal lover la... kita sebagai manusia patut tahu lebih, binatang ada otak tapi xde akal. Itu yg membezakan kite Manusia DENGAN Haiwan, so kalau dia nakal sikit tu biase la but kalau kau nak kata dia masuk umah kau then buat kacau tu mmg xmasuk akal la k, nak buat cerita tu biar jalan cerita kau tu menarik and masuk akal tau, kalau kau buat cerita pon xde sape nak beli sbb cerita kau tu xmasuk akal. Si Bubu tu gayat dia xakan panjat masuk umah kau then maen kat branda laaa cause dia gayat! aku kenal la kucing aku. So Mak cik simpan cerita anda yew. :)
jangan kacau aku kalau kau xknl aku :)

Biasa-biasa je...

2011-08-03T00:57:00.000+08:00

ok so dh habis satu kotak film aku, but still hasil nye still sama haisss apa la nasib, it ok xpe aku ok jew sebab aku kena cube kan kalau x mana aku nak tahu cara gune Polaroid land camera kn? so xpe aku xnak bising or kecoh :)

Sebab harini aku dapat makan apa yang aku nak sgt hahhaa yes sumpah sedap aku bersyukur aku ada seorang ibu yang loving and caring, tak percaya??? weehhh kau tengok aku? cukup makan x? lebih dari cukup actually :) hahaha.

Tadi lepas berbuka kan aku boleh cakap

" cek, cek ni bagus la..

dah lah pandai masak baek pulak tu untung kan tan dapat cek as my mother"

mak aku boleh lak jawap masak biase2 je boleh la huhu "merendah diri lak mak aku ni" actually tu la sebabnye aku suke mak aku ni she never like to talk big, like some others people (cakap besar). Hmmm bulan puasa ni had bring me one step to adulthood and Alhamdullilah i'm doing just fine fitting in the situation. Can't wait for what is about to happened.

Ehh lupe aku selalu bangun time xtentu tok sahur hahaha yelah mak xdok satu umah knnnn hahhaha...

miss my mother la hahah padahal baru je dia hantar kan aku tadi...

Biasa-biasa la...

1

2011-08-02T13:28:00.000+08:00

ok first day pose when well, haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa sedap doh mkn apa? nasi lemak bungkus and others.

buka pose ng MY MOTHER n others. ok update later ok?

put a spell on u

2011-07-31T22:39:00.002+08:00

ok so kau pilih dia over aku? ok
just gave my stuff back,
by the way i shell put a spell on u syg :)
have fun with the litter on
oh yeah thanks for stopping by.

sarung cincin di jarinya

2011-07-31T20:07:00.000+08:00

she a friend of my sister, hajatnye mahu datang tengok cincin disarung ke jarinya, akhir2 di mintak menjadi photography. Upah tidak penting bagi aku yang penting adalah semua pekara yang belaku hari itu dapat di saksikan semua dan dikenang hingga ke akhir hayat mereka sekeluarga.

Here is some off the pic i chosen to posted here, the other u guys just have to waited.

I'm not a pro i'm just a girl with an overprice camera who love to capture all the memory i can.

Nor bad or good.

a day before Ramadan

2011-07-31T14:34:00.000+08:00

tak ada keje di tengah hari ni...
jadi tukang peniup pelampung buat adik aku...
haishhhh duduk umah menghadap laptop,
tunggu makanan pulang dari kedai..
handphone seperti berada dalam kawasan hulu kampung saja...
idea entah keluar ke mana tak mahu pulang2 ke otak aku ni...
esok sudah mula bulan syaitan pulang ke neraka...
owhh damm you food akan aku miss itu rasa masin dan pedas dan sedap.....
hmmm rancangan ingin pergi mencari kertas tok camera punya gambar tapi tak ada bergerak pon si punggung...
alasan tak ada kenrendaan dan tiada teman... ( cheeee padahal xsemangat sgt)
kuku dah pucat balik hmm sabar la sebulan je...
ehh tibe-tibe aku nak makan karipuff and ayam uncle bob! damm kau nafsu makan!

aku

2011-07-30T19:16:00.002+08:00

aku tak nak lagi menagis.

aku nak keluar dari situasi ini.

terima kasih.

selamat tinggal.

macam mana?

2011-07-29T20:05:00.000+08:00

macam mana nak maju?

macam mana nak jadi jujur?

macam mana nak jadi berjasa?

macam mana nak jadi sahabat?

macam mana nak jadi manusia?

macam mana nak jadi terladan?

macam mana nak jadi bertamdun?

macam mana nak jadi insan pernyayang?

MACAM MANA?

sekiranya hati kau penuh dengan benci dan hasutan?

mulut tempayan boleh saja di tutup tapi mulut manusia?

tunggu masa dia mati dan di kuburkan la jawapnya.

so kawan macam mana??

kalah

2011-07-29T00:42:00.000+08:00

so kite kalah, hmmm tak pe la tidak ada rezeki agaknya...

cube lagi...

usah la

2011-07-28T01:14:00.001+08:00

kalau rasa susah sangat, usah la kau cuba.

kalau kau rasa aku bukan untuk kau?

usah la kau paksa tok serasikan jodohnya.

tamatkan saja hubungan itu disini, sekarang.

Usah la kau memperlahakan pergerakannya.

Hati ni dah cukup keraknya...

Usah la kau tipu diri kau dan diri aku...

Nothing last forever...

tak perlu sesi simpati, kerna aku boleh hidup tanpa simpati itu.

simpan saja simpati itu buat sape yang mahu kan simpati itu.

aku masih boleh hidup dan bernafas

nafas udara yang sama kau nafas.

aku sayang kau, sumpah aku sayang kau.

Tapi usahlah kau menipu diri aku.

Aku tarik diri dalam medan ini.

Halal kan segala makan minum aku selama aku di medan ini.

Halal kan segala kasih sayang yang telah kau limpahkan pada aku.

Usah risau kesannya tak akan aku hilangkan bergitu saja.

Insyallah

2011-07-26T11:36:00.000+08:00

insyallah kali ini adalah masanya,

no more laziness no more i'll said.

i'll keep myself open for what will be coming,

i'll be waiting for what ever i will be facing,

if tears and hard work is what i need to face for one step to adulthood

then i shell face it with a smile, open heart and an open brain

cause i'm ready.

al-kisah nyaaa

2011-07-26T00:31:00.000+08:00

asalamualaikum, ok so banyak sangat yang mahu di sampai kan la al-kisah nyaaa tapi di sebab kan masa dan kelapangan tidak cukup so aku speed jew la k.
Ok so sesi suai kenal dah abis so now mula la mengisi otak balik.
Now nak kena cari rumah tok berteduh! sebab tibar masa nya aku merlebar kan sayap dan terbang!!! ( padahal bapak aku xnak angkot aku pi sana sini dah! so kena la berdikari)
hmmm makan minum ok jeeewww, kasih sayang biase jewwww.
Tilam dan bantal??? xda cite so senyap!!!
TTA?? dh kempis sebab kena hempap dengan aku tiap2 ari!
hahahah aku ada bantal baru gempak gile la!!! sumpah empuk!
hmm kawan? ada jew!! syok ah!! otak berlimpah2 la knowledge dia org!
Alahamdulliah dapat kenal dengan mereka, Best dapat bergaul dengan mereka yang pikir semua bidang ni :)
ehh lupe aku ada jumpe budak sekolah aku, budak tu masa kat sekolah suke lompat2 haa, aku ingat kan dia dh berhenti rupa2 nya ada lagi la... adeh aku malas la nak bertembung dengan dia haissshhhh, harap2 xjumpe lagi la lepas ni kat sana. Kalau jumpe gak aku wat dono jew la, lagi pon kite bukannye rapat pon kn?? kau dengan aku bukan kawan pon kan?? cume secara kebetulan satu sekolah dan satu class jew kan cam tu lakn?? ha tu la cite aku! kalau orang tanya aku kenal kau kew x ok ROXY? OK....
apa lagi yek??? job?? Alahamdulillah ada gak 2 job baru2 ni but xsempat nak edit lagi sebab semua nya cramp lagi ni haaaa once semua dh settle's insyallah aku upload kat sini or mana2 ok :)

lalala

2011-07-16T02:28:00.002+08:00

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa lagi 1 hari je lagi!!!!!!!!!!!

tak sabar nye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!